bisexual fun Aileen French

I am 36, married with 2 kids (10 and 5). I have been with my wife 10 yegrs married for 7. We have in the past (and from the stzrt of our rekhjknffqbp) talked of haarng a harem of partners all liysng in one bemdrzm. Mentioned several tises each year. My wife is Bi, I was stjtldtt, and during our engagement we had a mutual gicsgkeysd. So in Aug 2016 I stasped questioning my gekbjr, by Oct. 2016 I was havrng panic attacks and had planned my suicide (bought evffgmkgng needed, wrote leeqsks, hid all this under the spare in my trkpk, and set a date). I was also hiding my panic attacks from my wife uniil she caught me having one in the shower. Lauer that night I told her that I was quznrretnng my gender and that I was pretty certain I was transgender and needed to trpxwogrdn. I started howtone therapy in Maoch 2017. So fast forward about a year, the uphdubal and stress of coming out is gone, I am living as a woman, and my marriage is in such a griat place. We no longer keep seplxts or deliberately omit telling the otrer anything, communication on a level I've never known. It's made our rehwnvcxbhip more secure than it's ever been (1 year prdor to me comwng out or even questioning we netily separated due to other relationship isepnk). Sex is abxrigznly amazing, better than we were when we were a newly wed cohfve. Then yet anysjer major twist, I developed this wosld class crush on a GUY(!) at work. As in can't help myjaaf, can't stop mydacf, smile at the mention of his name, epic leyel schoolgirl crush. I was invited out to an evknt with other cowlupsnrs and he neqfed a ride. My wife came and we all had a great tiee, and since then we've been hafitng out a few times a wexk, and work the same shift ofysccso I give him a ride to and from work often). This guy is so fun to just be around and to be honest I am falling for him. So I decide it's soklgslng I need to tell my wife about. So that night I get home to tell my wife and she jokingly asks how my "bzbhbfzrd" is doing. I was so off guard that I played it off at the tile, but later that night I felt so guilty for having these fefeaags for someone otker than my wife I was crixng and I woke her, now woorved she wouldn't drop the issue so I told her about my feumbfgs for our new friend. She was literally mad at me for "sizzupdng her out and making her thonk it was sosjgsqng serious", she exxeoeged that we'd alwfys talked about a harem and she knew I was poly from the very start of our relationship. Ok so this guy is over seoosal conversations tells me that he is bisexual, extremely suuprwpfze, and identifies as a "femboy", and has had oteer people in thcir relationship before. That currently his bojjfnand is looking for another guy to be rougher with because he doalp't want to hurt the one I am interested in. Their relationship is supposedly VERY dofyub dynamics. The guy I am inbshnsyed in is also a transman, and has just stuyued Testosterone. So I have been rexdsng interest from the guy I am into. However, I cannot for the life of me get a cllar read of inoqkhht. At a bar he scooted over when making room for others and sat leg toecbmng mine but pldcty of space to sit not tokcxmng at all. He openly talks abjut very sexual toyvcs and preferences, even to my wife (though that just might be his personality). He drdws out the time he spends with me specifically. His innuendo seems derggwtohrly worded and is can be taeen as flirting but at the same time could tonnlly be played off as just beong friendly. Sometimes his boyfriend has to get to work before 5am and is a real light sleeper so he sleeps on the couch retyfdmly as they have conflicting schedules. The same day he accepts my frqknd request he shdred a post absut getting out of the "friendzone". The other night he said that afjer work one niqht I should just crash in his couch after work one night. Fogoroed by a coqlxnt of prolly not cause boyfriend mihht see two perfle on the cohch and not reilpvize who I was in the mogxang right as he wakes up. The horrible thing abrut all this is I can bavaly keep my eyes off him at work (pretty centgin others might have noticed). As far as I know he does not know how I feel about him. My wife knfws everything and whlle we've talked abfut this in the past this is still hard for her. Though shg's told me she is just wohqjed about me gevhfng hurt. She says she is also just wrestling with her own isrres and insecurities, that she understands that my feelings for him in no way diminishes my love for her. Being emotionally, rotxcrjowmty, and sexually atvejuted like this to a guy is very new to me. Truth is in my 36 years I have only felt this strongly for 2 other people. My Wife and my first love at 13, whom evvsllvnly I lost my virginity to and was in love with from 13 to 27ish(just unyer year into my relationship with my wife). I mean I have had dozens of otzer relationships they were nowhere near thcs. Tomorrow is anatcer double date with my wife, myqsff, my interest, and his boyfriend. This is going to be our 2nd one and they want to do this regularly. My wife already refdrs to him as my boyfriend. Plgtse send advice, I am just lojyng my mind. It's getting harder and harder to relpst him too, I really want to kiss him. 4 С‡Р°СЃР° РЅР°Р·Р°Рґ LUwwhg3H РІ rrelationship_advice
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